Ok, I want to preface this post by letting ya’ll know I have really been putting this off. Mostly because I haven’t been quite ready to feel my feelings about leaving this apartment. Am I being dramatic? Probably. Is it how I feel? Yes. I’ve been living in DC now for the past 9 months and it has been a very big 9 months. As some of you may remember, I broke up with my boyfriend of over 3 years back in October in 2020. I was living in his apartment and packed up my things and got on a flight the next day. I came back to DC planning to only be here for a couple weeks for a wedding when my sister then suggested I stay here through the holidays and live in her apartment. From there, everything seemed to just work itself out. Because I had no idea how long I would be here and didn’t want to invest in furniture, I started working with Feather and they completely outfitted my apartment. To say they made this apartment a home is an understatement. This apartment became my safe haven. It’s where I tore down everything in my life (left LA, relationship and full-time job) and set out to rebuild. I needed the space and alone time to feel what I was feeling. And what I was feeling was that for the entirety of my adult life, I was on auto-pilot. I was surviving. This is the first apartment I learned how to live alone. The first few months were tough. I dreaded when the time came to fall asleep. It wasn’t necessarily that I was afraid to be alone in the apartment but more so, afraid to be with my thoughts.
I set out to use this time to rebuild. Rebuild my career, my relationship with myself and rebuild my confidence to steady myself for what was next. I’m not sure I would have made all of the drastic moves in my life if I didn’t feel like I had a place to feel secure and comforted, and I feel beyond lucky of what this apartment has symbolized over the past few months. But let’s get real, I have had my struggles. It’s here where I had my first panic attack since high school, here where I dealt with heartbreak and here where I cried in the hallway because the unknown was just so overwhelming. But overtime, because of the energy I was investing in myself, I begun to steady out. I began to feel comfortable. Life became comfortable. This is the apartment where I started to build my consulting career and signed the biggest deals of my life, it’s here where I ran my first mile (on my mini treadmill) in over a decade, it’s here where I built my beloved morning routine (meditate, smoothie, walk, podcast) and here where I was able to host my family and friends for late nights in my cozy living room.
I guess you could say this is a love letter to this little DC apartment. It’s a love letter to the sectional sofa of my dreams where I had many nights alone, face masking and watching bravo. Where I set up my “podcast” studio on my Lorimer desk each week to record “So Random With Court and Kelly” and where I slept in my comfortable bed each night while learning that going to be alone doesn’t necesirly mean you are lonely. I am so grateful to Feather for affording me the opportunity of creating a flexible home since my future has been so unknown. I can’t say enough great things about the services they offer and how it truly is an incredible service especially when the world has been so up in the air. In the blink of an eye, their team will come and pick-up my beloved furniture that has created a place of comfort and tranquility during this past year. And with that, I am ready for what’s to come next. Stay tuned!
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Katelyn Todd says
Soooo not fair to leave us on a cliff hanger like that! Can’t wait to see what’s next 🙂
Aunt Trisha says
*necessarily* 😉 xxoo to you Kell Bell
Proud of you and excited for you – every step from here on out will be so intentional and powerful, you will shine💫