SHOP THE LOOK
Often on social media or the internet you only see people’s successes. This thought has become more and more apparent as I have gotten older. I think this thought has began to stay with me because as we get older we experience failures more often. These past couple weeks have been harder for me than most in my quote unquote adult life. These are due to a couple different factors but the main one being my full time job. As I have shared with close friends and my family the brand I work on at Macy’s was announced that it was getting dissolved. In that moment my whole team was told that July 1st would be our last days. Over the past few weeks I really wanted to wait until that last day to speak about this on M&M, but then I thought how in-genuine would that be. Because at that point I would have already had life figured out. I would know maybe my next job, my next life decision. I wouldn’t be sharing the struggles, low points, stresses of getting to that point.
Our main incentive of Mimosas and Manhattan (since the beginning) was to always keep it real & I want to share the RIGHT NOW. The not so pretty of it all. To back up a bit I have been with Macy’s for about 2.5 years now and have held two different job titles since my start. I have loved getting the opportunity to work on such a fun and diverse brand. However through those 2.5 years you learn a lot about yourself and what you are good at and what you are not so good at. With being in product development I have really learned the complete in’s and out’s of what goes into developing clothing. I have also learned that this is not the career for me. I am not picky for starters. I once cried about a conversation over… buttons. I am just much too literal to fit into the job. However the plus side of Macy’s is that it is a GINORMOUS corporation (also.. hashtag #corporate), therefor I got to discover and place my hands in so many roles. Which is where I found my love and excitement for marketing, social media and other potential roles I could play for a company in my full time position.
Therefor when told my position was eliminated upper mgmt gave my level position and the position below mine an ultimatum in that we are still guaranteed a job with the company, in product development just on a different brand. A brand that we would have no say or direction in receiving. At this point in my career I had to decline that offer. Some people could say I am crazy because a job is a job right? But when knowing deep down this is not what you were destined to do, makes it easier to step away. However it has not been without a lot of stress and low points in coming to that conclusion.
At this current time I am really seeking what it is I want to do next. A lot of anxiety has kicked in, in this question. I am a MAJOR planner. I have always known my next move, known my goals and known where I stand. Now I am a bit at a loss. There is a question in blogging full time but that comes with many unknowns and I am not 100% sure I am ready to make that leap yet. There is the scariness in jumping back into the job search (note I am not receiving severance, because technically was offered a job). I have never really been at this point – I was the girl in college that accepted her full time job with Macys even before starting her senior year of college….. SO YES YOU COULD SAY I AM WORRIED.
Yet I am learning to work through it. So moral of this story… It is okay to sometimes not have it all figured it out. & even the people that look like they do… newsflash… they don’t. A friend recently told me that I just need to *ride the waves* and honestly she is right. I have been lucky in life to have a lot of it planned out for me and maybe this could be my best adventure yet. I am learning that it will all be okay. Life is always what you make of it. So I am trying to make the most of this situation and find really what it is that I am destined to do!
*any advice – please leave in comments below – lol*